Adam apartment update

Well thanks to a few garage sales and People to People ministries Adam now has almost everything he needs. The only thing he still needs is lamps and mini blinds. So we are in good shape. Cliff and I were able to see the place yesterday. It is a pretty nice place. And the land lord seems to be a fair man so that is a blessing. I think this is going to work out OK. Keep praying for him.

I have been better with the panic attacks. But I am still not good. I don't go anywhere cliff cant go to. I did go to my dads yesterday. But walmart was tough for me.

Panic Attacks

I have been having massive panic attacks.I wish this was like the flu and would just go away. I am afraid to leave the house. I am afraid of strangers. I wish there was some one else like me. I feel so alone. If there is someone else I would sure like to here from you. Like what was your experience ? What did you do and how did you get over it?

this weekend

Ok well we have have had a good weekend. Adam is doing good. And is excited about moving in to his new appartment. We have a busy day and for the fist time I saw my new Nephew. He is so cute. Not as cute as my grandchildren. lol But any way we had a good time and was nice to see all of them. My dad is doing good. This is the first time he has been able to stand all of us there at one time. But we found adam a microwave. My daughtner gave him one. SO that was real nice of her. I have to say I am pround of all my children.

Adam

Just wanted to up date you. Adam has been qualified for a government program called S PLUS. It helps him move out on his own and pays his rent. they counseling center has even found away to pay his security deposit. We have been hunt things for his apartment. We went to a garage sale and bought a sweeper ,and sheets a toaster and a wok all for 15.00. then this afternoon he found silver ware and glasses at the good will. for 8.00. So I think all he needs is a small kitchen table and curtains and cookers. So he is doing good and is real excited about be on his own. I got to tell you it is about time things started going good for us. It has been a bad couple of years.

The Man

OK well this was cliffs idea so here goes. I have this reoccurring Nightmare where I am being chased by this man. I can even tell you what he looks like. He is tall and has long brown hair and has it in a pony tail. But just as he is about to grab me i wake up screaming the man is coming. Well here is the funny part. when cliff leaves for work he tells me all kinds of funny things to solve the problem. Like this morning he told the man had a flat tire and couldn't come. One day he told me that he told him not to come. One time he told me he had engine trouble in his car. But we laugh about this all the time. So i hope some one else can laugh to.

Me

Well I have had a rough week. My son is doing better. The Halidol seems to be helping alot. But I have had one panic attack after another. I have applied for social security and am hoping it goes through soon. I am afraid to leave the house. I don't go anywhere cliff cant go with me. This is all of a sudden for me. It is crippling. How Do I get rid of it. It seems to be getting worse and not better. . If someone has a way to help this i would appreciate the help. Financially things are real tight. that doesn't help any. If you pray start with me.

saturday

Well last night we went out on a date. Cliff and I had a good night. We also did some shopping and mostly had a good night. And Adam is doing OK. the Halidol seems to be helping. He is sleeping better.So I think things are on the way up. But I do hope the Social security I applied for comes through.

Also It is important to take care of your self. Some time I think we get so involved in taking care of other people we forget about are selves. I know Cliff and I do.