OK this weekend Adam went to Columbus to visit with my sister. He drove down there and did fine. So I kinda get a break. But I went to the doctor yesterday and I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I am on two different kinds of medication. So I am trying to get on social security and I hope it goes thought the first time. Everyone who prays please pray for me.. I am in bad shape. I hope it goes OK. My nerves are shot. But on the good side Adam is doing good. I wish I was a stronger person them I would be able to work and the financial things would be easier.
OK one thing i realized last night was that there is a good idea to have a extra set of medication. The weather was bad last night and we had to take a chance on Adam getting home because of his medication. I also think that it is a good idea to have a extra set of medication with you or in the car just in case. Adam said that he was going to get better so he wouldn't have to take his medication. But that is not the way it works. once you are on medication for bipolar or any other medication you need to stay on it. You should stop with out talking to your doctor first.
Well I had a bad day yesterday. I am here to tell you that my nerves are shot. I couldnt do much but cry. But Adam is having car trouble and thank God some one from his church is going to help him fix it. And I could sure use some me time. I know I dont work but my mine is a mess. I sometime think that the families of mentally ill people are under so much pressure that they need as much help as the mentally ill peolpe do. Some day I am going to husband nap cliff and we are going to run away for a whole day. Just the two of us no phones or anyone to interupt.Well I hope you all have a good day and thanks for letting me vent.
Well Cliff and I went had a wonderful out to eat tonight for valentines day. We went to Rockne's and we had a great time. I had FettuccineAlfredo with shrimp and cliff has a steak dinner. We had a good night. There was a 35 minute wait but it was worth it. there was no mood swingingbipolar to shift through and no one interrupting. I think if you are married and dealing with mental illness it is important for you to get out sometime. I wish cliff and I could get a hotel for a night or two. We also took flowers to my mom and a pie to my dad. they loved it. So all in all it was a fun wonderful night.
Well the doctor said that he didn't think Adam had borderline personality disorder. I am glad. this Bipolar is hard enough to live with. But he is doing good. I wish sometimes this was something like the flu and would go away but it isn't. So I guess it is something we just have to deal with. But i have to tell you that the mood swings and the burst of energy and the tiredness is hard sometimes. But I am hoping that the NAMI cooperation will help. It is as hard for the family as it is the person. Also I was in the Walmart today and I heard a man say to his friend that he was acting so Bipolar. I am hear to tell you that is unacceptable. It is like saying he is so gay or some other stupid bad remark. listen up people it is not funny. I turned and gave this real big man a dirty look and then hid from him. HAHAHA . But It wasn't funny and I'm glad my son wasn't with me. So i wish people would understand that this isn't something people can help and the name calling is mean and rude. I would like just one time for people to have to live with this then they would understand. Let me know how you feel about this.
Well Adam has got a job at least for a while. He has a job at the good will working in the piece factory. And now the think he might have Borderline personality disorder. I'm not sure what that is but I am going to do some research. he seems to like the job. at least he can pay his bills, If some one has information on this disorder please let me know. But his meds seems to working good. he is better. I am glad he has had a rough road to go down.
So I went to the NAMI meeting last night and things went very well. I presented my Idea for the mentoring program and every one thought it was a good idea. One lady told me she wanted my phone number and address. I am not sure why but i gave it to her. Every one pray this works out. I was really glad i went . I told them about my son and how most people don't know that there is help out there. There are County mental health center in every county in every state.. I am telling you that there was alot of nice people there. So i will keep you updated
Ok Have any of you had a weekend when you felt so stupid? Well It has been one of those weekends here. First we got are car stuck in a ditch two times at my dads and then i lost my check book. then the steering on my husbands car is acting up. I think the world would be better off if I just stayed in the house and never left at all. I then had my son call last night and say he had lost his cell phone and wanted me to have it shut off for him. So it has not been a good weekend for us. I am tired and pissed off at my self.