My family

Well Cliff got laid off permanently . But the lord has taken care of us so far. Adam got excepted to the nick amster workshop. and he loves it. I sure hope cliff finds a job soon. I think he misses work but not going to Cleveland everyday. Every one who believes in the lord pray for us. we could sure use the prayer. I have to tell you this has been a year form hell. we are both a little worn out and depressed. tell me why do all the bad things have to happen to us? I wish just for a while we could have some good stuff happen.

Adam update

OK well I have some good news to report. this past week dam was excepted to the Nick amster Workshop. That is a sheltered work shop that will help him work and will also transport him to and from it. But some one stole his computer and all of his Cd's and his IPOD. while he was in the hospital for a suicide attempt. He also lost his car. It tore up. So he is better and is on the way up and is excited about the workshop. So keep praying.I will try to keep updates. better and more often

Adam update

Well this has been a bad week, Adam wrecked his car and now has nothing to drive. so he is still trying to get a way to church. So I am praying that he get in to the sheltered work shop. That will at least give him something to do. So every one keep praying for us things sem to go from bad to worse.

kathy

OK this has been a bad weekend. And to boot my social security was denied for the second time. We could sure use some help. Adam is doing real good and he is on medicaid and getting cash assistance. . I am having a nervous break down. so every one pray for us. We could sure use the lord help. we are having a hard time paying are bills, so pray for us.

updates for me

OK first it has been a long time since i updated this. for that I'm sorry. But Adam is doing real good and his medicaid is in place and he has his financial assistance in place. But money is a real problem for us and we are having a trouble with money . I have had some nerve trouble and i am on medication for it. The doctor says i am going to have a nervous breakdown if things don't change. So pray for me and for a money situation. we sure could use the lords help.

ok hers whats going on

Adam finally got his medicaid and his finacial assistance today, So we are on the right way. I am having some issues my self So keep praying for us. I hope every one is dong ok. let me know how you are,

Adam update

Well Adam got fired this weekend. He worked at a restaurant called Ruby Tuesdays and they said couldn't work fast or neat enough. is there any one who will give him a chance and work with him. I am getting tired of all the bad stuff happening I wish the lord would bless us . we cant hardly pay are bill let alone help with Adams bills. Every one pray for us. we could sure use his help.

Good and Bad News

OK this has been a REAL bad weekend. First my husbands brother Allen Died this morning. And Cliff is having a hard time with this. Good news is Adam Got a job this weekend. And his medicaid card was approved. Also the radiator in my car broke and the parts store ordered the wrong part. So keep praying for us. we sure need it and we are having a hard time money wise to.

update on adam

I have good news about Adam he was approved for a medicaid card and had a job interview at Wendy's on Friday. So everything is looking up and just pray for him. Also remember my brother in low he was diagnosed with cancer. But the doctor said he is in the early stages and should be fine. Also cliffs is dying so remember us. It is hard on cliff he is having a hard time with his brother dying.

About me

Well I am not happy about anything that has happened. Adam is having a hard time bipolar makes it so hard. Some one said on my last post not to tell them. But that is hard to do. Because it is not something that you can hide for long. It is something that people notice. He has a chance to get a good job and I hope he gets it.My nerves are shot and I am having panic attacks and I am not sure how much more I can take. Everyone please pray for us. Cliff car broke Friday at work and now I have no way to get anywhere. So every one pray for us.

For Clff

One thing I would like to let people know is that although I have a blog I don't spend all my time blogging. And there is not much information on Bipolar disorder. Although Adam does desperately need a job. And I am here to tell you the Job market sucks for most people. But mentally ill ones it is worse. If you are the one who does the hiring think about it first. Adam is a hard working person and is honest with people and cant get a job.

Bipolar Update

I have learned something new today. My friend told me that an allergist told her to stop taking her medication. She is also Bipolar and he says it can effect the results of the allergy tests. So she has been a whole 2 weeks with out it. And is now starting it back up. So my question is if it effects these test . what Other test does it also effect? And just for the record adam has started taking classes for state tested nurses aid. Pray that he passes the test and gets a job.

adam update

Well we got Adam moved. But we like to worked are selves to death. Adam and Cliff were moving a couch and got the dump thing stuck half way up to steps. took us and hour and half to get it up stairs. If it hadn't be so hard it would have been funny. And with two trips to rittman and several down the road we got him moved. But we finally got him moved and but together at about 5 pm last night and im here to tell you we were worn out last night. but he has a nice apartment. He seems to like it so im glad.

adam

Adam apartment update

Well thanks to a few garage sales and People to People ministries Adam now has almost everything he needs. The only thing he still needs is lamps and mini blinds. So we are in good shape. Cliff and I were able to see the place yesterday. It is a pretty nice place. And the land lord seems to be a fair man so that is a blessing. I think this is going to work out OK. Keep praying for him.

I have been better with the panic attacks. But I am still not good. I don't go anywhere cliff cant go to. I did go to my dads yesterday. But walmart was tough for me.

Panic Attacks

I have been having massive panic attacks.I wish this was like the flu and would just go away. I am afraid to leave the house. I am afraid of strangers. I wish there was some one else like me. I feel so alone. If there is someone else I would sure like to here from you. Like what was your experience ? What did you do and how did you get over it?

this weekend

Ok well we have have had a good weekend. Adam is doing good. And is excited about moving in to his new appartment. We have a busy day and for the fist time I saw my new Nephew. He is so cute. Not as cute as my grandchildren. lol But any way we had a good time and was nice to see all of them. My dad is doing good. This is the first time he has been able to stand all of us there at one time. But we found adam a microwave. My daughtner gave him one. SO that was real nice of her. I have to say I am pround of all my children.

Adam

Just wanted to up date you. Adam has been qualified for a government program called S PLUS. It helps him move out on his own and pays his rent. they counseling center has even found away to pay his security deposit. We have been hunt things for his apartment. We went to a garage sale and bought a sweeper ,and sheets a toaster and a wok all for 15.00. then this afternoon he found silver ware and glasses at the good will. for 8.00. So I think all he needs is a small kitchen table and curtains and cookers. So he is doing good and is real excited about be on his own. I got to tell you it is about time things started going good for us. It has been a bad couple of years.

The Man

OK well this was cliffs idea so here goes. I have this reoccurring Nightmare where I am being chased by this man. I can even tell you what he looks like. He is tall and has long brown hair and has it in a pony tail. But just as he is about to grab me i wake up screaming the man is coming. Well here is the funny part. when cliff leaves for work he tells me all kinds of funny things to solve the problem. Like this morning he told the man had a flat tire and couldn't come. One day he told me that he told him not to come. One time he told me he had engine trouble in his car. But we laugh about this all the time. So i hope some one else can laugh to.

Me

Well I have had a rough week. My son is doing better. The Halidol seems to be helping alot. But I have had one panic attack after another. I have applied for social security and am hoping it goes through soon. I am afraid to leave the house. I don't go anywhere cliff cant go with me. This is all of a sudden for me. It is crippling. How Do I get rid of it. It seems to be getting worse and not better. . If someone has a way to help this i would appreciate the help. Financially things are real tight. that doesn't help any. If you pray start with me.